Hi friends!
It's been a while since I've written anything in here, but my mind is reeling with things lately, so I thought I'd jot them down for whoever wants to read them.
It's summer, and I am spending every waking moment with my three kids. This week I have one more, my nephew who is visiting from NJ. It's been a blast spending all this time with the kids, and I think God is teaching me some things through them.
I've been thinking about how the world looks through their eyes. I've also been examining how my actions look through their eyes. I have made good decisions and bad ones too, and I've hidden very little from them. I want them to see that adults make mistakes too, but God is okay with that. He loves us all the more if we run to Him when we fail. His love never fails.
When the kids were little, I felt like my actions weren't under as much scrutiny as I do now. I have a 12 year old daughter and she notices everything! She asks questions sometimes, but mostly just observes and picks things up that way. I know she will live like I do. I've never been a "do as I say and not as I do" parent. I live honestly before my kids and try to lead them with the best example possible. Sometimes I am scared by that thought. Most of the time, however, I am comforted by it because I know I am living whole-heartedly for Jesus. Let the chips fall where they may. I am far from perfect but I am honest.
Now that I have clarified where I am coming from I wonder just how much of our kids future depends on what we do as parents? I mean, it seems every book I read, or movie I see tells a story of an adult still trying to win the approval of their parents in some way. Is this what life is all about? If I somehow fail to show them that I approve of them and love them, will they struggle all their lives with this? I hope not.
I know there is more to life. I know I felt the same way to an extent about my parents for years. I have an older brother who is an over-achiever, to put it mildly, and he has always won the approval of my parents. He did things they were proud of, like achieve in academics and sports. My parents value things like wealth, success, beauty and worldly status very highly, as do many people in this world. I got saved at age 19 and I have to say that those things never meant as much to me as it did to them. So I didn't pursue their approval. However, the first time I ever heard the words "I'm proud of you" they didn't come from my parents...they came from my older brother when I graduated from Bible School. I cried like a baby. I guess we all want to hear that from someone here on earth. Powerful words. Affirming words.
At the age of 19 I began to live my life for God and am trying to do His will on a daily basis to please HIM. My life is lived for an audience of ONE...but that's not to say I am unaware of those little eyes watching my every move.
I pray that as I live my life as honestly as possible, and make no excuses for stupidity, I will please my Father, and influence my kids for good. I pray that as I love others unselfishly, they will learn to do the same. I pray that the influence I have on them will be more good than bad, because I am aware of my human-ness all too well. I pray that my life, though small in some people's view, will have eternal value.
Friday, July 9, 2010
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Are You a Giver or a Taker?
I've been thinking lately about the two categories of people I notice all around me, givers and takers. I want to be a giver, because then I believe I will be closer to the character of God. We've all heard the saying, "It's better to give than to receive." This quote, like most great quotes, comes from the mouth of Jesus Himself in Acts 20:35. I believe this in theory, but also from experience.
In my family of origin I have great examples of both, givers and takers. I'm sure most people can say the same of their families. But when I became a Christian at the age of 19 my understanding and practice of generosity went to a whole new level. Now, I want to clarify that I am not saying I give on every occasion, like to the beggar on the street of New York City. I wish I could say that I've gotten to the place where I do give whenever I see a need, but I know being a giver is something God prizes, so I am working on it.
There are so many ways to be a giver, not just monetarily. If you don't have extra money to give, you can give with our life. Give of your time. Give of your talents. There is an inherent blessing when you give consistently and on purpose. God smiles down on us somehow. When we realize that life is bigger than ourselves and we break out of the small thinking of our own little world, we are becoming more like God.
The biggest temptation for believers in America (in my opinion) is to get stuck in our own heads and think about our "little world" and not affect the world around us. It is a temptation to just love our families and our spouses and forget that there is a great big world out there. Okay, for the average person, we aren't going to "change the world" necessarily, but God gives each one of us a sphere of influence. If we change the lives of those we contact every day, even in small ways, we are changing the world, aren't we?
The people we work with, the people we live with, the neighbors who live around us. We can change their lives for the better. We can be a giver when we offer to babysit, or to empty the dishwasher, or take out the garbage without being asked. When we look for ways to be a blessing, the people around you will notice and will appreciate it. It seems like such a small thing, doing the dishes...but it means a lot when you live with someone and they contribute to the house in some way, especially if they don't have to be asked to do it.
These things aren't small things, they are building blocks for God to be able to trust us with bigger things in the future. If He sees that we are willing to sweep the floor or clean the kitchen after someone cooks a meal, He will see our heart to serve and give. He will give us more opportunities to serve and give. Our pastor at our former church understood this principle. He would not allow anyone to do anything in ministry unless they were first willing to clean the church or put announcements on the chairs on Sunday morning. It is the principle found in Luke 16:11-12 "If you have not been trustworthy in handling worldly wealth, who will trust you with true riches? And if you have not been trustworthy with someone else's property, who will give you property of your own?"
I wholeheartedly believe in this type of training ground. I've seen people with a heart to give in every area. Anything they can do to bless or help someone, they just do it. No one has to ask. These are the people who will do well in ministry. Jesus came to serve, not to be served. He washed people's feet. He didn't ask what He could get, He asked what could He give. He is our example and I for one am going to pattern my life after the greatest Giver I know.
We will never be able to out-give God, but I'm going to look for every opportunity to give. I am going to serve with my life. I am going to pay a single mom's rent when I can. I am going to buy groceries for someone when I can. I am going to give of my time and my energy, because that is something everyone has...time. I am going to give and not take. This life we live is not all about us...it's all about HIM. Let's open our eyes. There are opportunities all around us to be more like Jesus. Do it for Him.
In my family of origin I have great examples of both, givers and takers. I'm sure most people can say the same of their families. But when I became a Christian at the age of 19 my understanding and practice of generosity went to a whole new level. Now, I want to clarify that I am not saying I give on every occasion, like to the beggar on the street of New York City. I wish I could say that I've gotten to the place where I do give whenever I see a need, but I know being a giver is something God prizes, so I am working on it.
There are so many ways to be a giver, not just monetarily. If you don't have extra money to give, you can give with our life. Give of your time. Give of your talents. There is an inherent blessing when you give consistently and on purpose. God smiles down on us somehow. When we realize that life is bigger than ourselves and we break out of the small thinking of our own little world, we are becoming more like God.
The biggest temptation for believers in America (in my opinion) is to get stuck in our own heads and think about our "little world" and not affect the world around us. It is a temptation to just love our families and our spouses and forget that there is a great big world out there. Okay, for the average person, we aren't going to "change the world" necessarily, but God gives each one of us a sphere of influence. If we change the lives of those we contact every day, even in small ways, we are changing the world, aren't we?
The people we work with, the people we live with, the neighbors who live around us. We can change their lives for the better. We can be a giver when we offer to babysit, or to empty the dishwasher, or take out the garbage without being asked. When we look for ways to be a blessing, the people around you will notice and will appreciate it. It seems like such a small thing, doing the dishes...but it means a lot when you live with someone and they contribute to the house in some way, especially if they don't have to be asked to do it.
These things aren't small things, they are building blocks for God to be able to trust us with bigger things in the future. If He sees that we are willing to sweep the floor or clean the kitchen after someone cooks a meal, He will see our heart to serve and give. He will give us more opportunities to serve and give. Our pastor at our former church understood this principle. He would not allow anyone to do anything in ministry unless they were first willing to clean the church or put announcements on the chairs on Sunday morning. It is the principle found in Luke 16:11-12 "If you have not been trustworthy in handling worldly wealth, who will trust you with true riches? And if you have not been trustworthy with someone else's property, who will give you property of your own?"
I wholeheartedly believe in this type of training ground. I've seen people with a heart to give in every area. Anything they can do to bless or help someone, they just do it. No one has to ask. These are the people who will do well in ministry. Jesus came to serve, not to be served. He washed people's feet. He didn't ask what He could get, He asked what could He give. He is our example and I for one am going to pattern my life after the greatest Giver I know.
We will never be able to out-give God, but I'm going to look for every opportunity to give. I am going to serve with my life. I am going to pay a single mom's rent when I can. I am going to buy groceries for someone when I can. I am going to give of my time and my energy, because that is something everyone has...time. I am going to give and not take. This life we live is not all about us...it's all about HIM. Let's open our eyes. There are opportunities all around us to be more like Jesus. Do it for Him.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
More on Female Friendship
In search of some true blue friends. This was my story. I've since learned that what I was searching for in people I can only find in God. People always let you down. They don't live up to your expectations of them. Maybe we build them up in our minds to be something that they are not simply because that is what we want them to be.
I grew up in a home with three brothers, no sisters. As I've stated in past writings, I believe this fact has shaped me in many ways. Lack of experience in dealing with females has led to some strange relationship faux pas. For example, since I've gotten to know the inside of a male's head in terms of thinking and emotions, I tend to look at a woman in that same way, and they are NOT like men. You would think since I am a woman, I would know how we think, but like I said, my upbringing has taught me some things! One is...how to think like a man!
I tend to be practical in my thinking. I am not emotional, but pretty much the same temperment almost every day of my life. There are no major highs or lows. I am consistent. I am mellow and calm and live in a state of peace, thanks to my God. Reading the past few sentences, does this remind you of most women you know? I know! I feel like an anomaly! It makes dealing with people of my same sex rather tricky. Not sure how they are going to react at any given time. You can pretty much know how I will react. Not too many surprises with me. Some people may find that boring, but I thank God for it! It keeps me and my family sane.
So, my dilema is maintaining female friends. I know what I am and what I'm not. I don't suffer from pride in this area, but I do believe I am a great friend. I am extremely loyal. I will do anything for a friend, barring something that would send me to jail. I try to be encouraging, and always lift people up. I try to bless them whenever I can by helping them out in some way or just by "being there". I have learned the secret of being a giver. I give until I have nothing left to give, and then God gives me more, and I give again! I believe I am fun to be around. I laugh a lot. I enjoy life. I don't take myself or others too seriously.
Now all of that said, I realize I have areas of weakness also. Areas I am working on with the Lord's help on a daily basis! But is it too much to ask for a friend who will chose to look at all of the positive qualities I posess instead of focusing on the areas of weakness? I mean, we all have them, don't we? Weaknesses are common to all of mankind, so it stands to reason we should expect people to have them and to overlook them if possible. I feel like it's important to look at a person's heart...that is, if you have discernment in that area. If you see that they have a good heart and would never intentionally hurt you, you can give them some grace when they do.
Oh well, life is a huge classroom. I am learning. It's just hard when you completely believe in someone and trust them and they hurt you. It's a wound that goes deep. I have not sufferred the loss of a loved one yet (thank God) but it feels like a death when you lose a friend you loved so dearly. I've learned that God is my source...of everything, love, friendship and joy. He sustains me in every circumstance of life. I don't know what I would do without Him. The only One who will never leave me nor forsake me! He is my Rock!
I've learned that I am a good person, in my heart, no matter what other people think of me. I make mistakes and do things that I shouldn't sometimes, but that's life. I hope to be closer to the image of Jesus tomorrow than I am today! My goal is to just be more like Him daily. To serve more like Him. To love more like Him. To just...look more like Him every day. If I do that, I'm doing His will.
I've learned that people don't deserve to be trusted until they prove themselves trustworthy, even then, tread lightly. Oh don't get me wrong, I still believe in the general goodness of people, but I won't trust a person unless I've walked through life with them for a while. When I've seen them consistently, day in and day out, prove to be trustworthy. But I will never completely put my trust in a human being. We are all too flawed.
I've learned that I value loyalty very much. I expect people to stand by me as a friend because I would stand by them NO MATTER WHAT. I would never cut someone out of my life because they did something I didn't like. I would love them with the love God has shown me in my depravity...and remain a loyal friend. We all deserve to be loved. Love is free, everyone can do it. I give what I have to give, and love is definitely one of the things I have to give.
So in the end, it's good to know I've learned some things. The list is endless, so I won't go on, but suffice it to say that God is not done with me yet! Thanks for reading!
I grew up in a home with three brothers, no sisters. As I've stated in past writings, I believe this fact has shaped me in many ways. Lack of experience in dealing with females has led to some strange relationship faux pas. For example, since I've gotten to know the inside of a male's head in terms of thinking and emotions, I tend to look at a woman in that same way, and they are NOT like men. You would think since I am a woman, I would know how we think, but like I said, my upbringing has taught me some things! One is...how to think like a man!
I tend to be practical in my thinking. I am not emotional, but pretty much the same temperment almost every day of my life. There are no major highs or lows. I am consistent. I am mellow and calm and live in a state of peace, thanks to my God. Reading the past few sentences, does this remind you of most women you know? I know! I feel like an anomaly! It makes dealing with people of my same sex rather tricky. Not sure how they are going to react at any given time. You can pretty much know how I will react. Not too many surprises with me. Some people may find that boring, but I thank God for it! It keeps me and my family sane.
So, my dilema is maintaining female friends. I know what I am and what I'm not. I don't suffer from pride in this area, but I do believe I am a great friend. I am extremely loyal. I will do anything for a friend, barring something that would send me to jail. I try to be encouraging, and always lift people up. I try to bless them whenever I can by helping them out in some way or just by "being there". I have learned the secret of being a giver. I give until I have nothing left to give, and then God gives me more, and I give again! I believe I am fun to be around. I laugh a lot. I enjoy life. I don't take myself or others too seriously.
Now all of that said, I realize I have areas of weakness also. Areas I am working on with the Lord's help on a daily basis! But is it too much to ask for a friend who will chose to look at all of the positive qualities I posess instead of focusing on the areas of weakness? I mean, we all have them, don't we? Weaknesses are common to all of mankind, so it stands to reason we should expect people to have them and to overlook them if possible. I feel like it's important to look at a person's heart...that is, if you have discernment in that area. If you see that they have a good heart and would never intentionally hurt you, you can give them some grace when they do.
Oh well, life is a huge classroom. I am learning. It's just hard when you completely believe in someone and trust them and they hurt you. It's a wound that goes deep. I have not sufferred the loss of a loved one yet (thank God) but it feels like a death when you lose a friend you loved so dearly. I've learned that God is my source...of everything, love, friendship and joy. He sustains me in every circumstance of life. I don't know what I would do without Him. The only One who will never leave me nor forsake me! He is my Rock!
I've learned that I am a good person, in my heart, no matter what other people think of me. I make mistakes and do things that I shouldn't sometimes, but that's life. I hope to be closer to the image of Jesus tomorrow than I am today! My goal is to just be more like Him daily. To serve more like Him. To love more like Him. To just...look more like Him every day. If I do that, I'm doing His will.
I've learned that people don't deserve to be trusted until they prove themselves trustworthy, even then, tread lightly. Oh don't get me wrong, I still believe in the general goodness of people, but I won't trust a person unless I've walked through life with them for a while. When I've seen them consistently, day in and day out, prove to be trustworthy. But I will never completely put my trust in a human being. We are all too flawed.
I've learned that I value loyalty very much. I expect people to stand by me as a friend because I would stand by them NO MATTER WHAT. I would never cut someone out of my life because they did something I didn't like. I would love them with the love God has shown me in my depravity...and remain a loyal friend. We all deserve to be loved. Love is free, everyone can do it. I give what I have to give, and love is definitely one of the things I have to give.
So in the end, it's good to know I've learned some things. The list is endless, so I won't go on, but suffice it to say that God is not done with me yet! Thanks for reading!
Thursday, January 14, 2010
What's Next?
Well, here I am, getting started in the blogging world. Not sure what I'm doing yet, but it is an experiment in the unknown.
I will begin this thing with my story. My story starts out in Northern New Jersey. I was born and raised in a small town in NJ called Dumont. It was one square mile. I come from a middle class upbringing, always had my needs met, parents still married today after 50 years. I had three older brothers and we grew up without anything tragic happening in our family, thankfully.
I went through my teen years and was quite rebelious toward my parents. I began "experimenting" out there to see what could fill this hole in my soul that I knew was there, but I couldn't articulate what it might be. So I tried a variety of drugs and alcohol, I tried everything at least once, but deep down inside I knew it was a relationship that would ultimately fill that void. (Don't ask me how I knew that. I was always very relational.) Consequently, I never did get too involved in substance abuse, and I thank God for that as well.
I began dating at a very early age, but I didn't really lose my innocence until Sophmore year of high school. I met a boy in HS who I never actually dated then, but would later become someone very important to me. After HS, I went to one year of community college which made me feel even more lost. I didn't enjoy college because I had no direction. (Sounds familiar!)
During that year I got a phone call from that boy (who was now a man) that I knew from HS, Chris. He was in the Navy at this time and he needed a date for his best friend's wedding. I happened to be unattached so I joyfully accompanied him to the wedding. It was the beginning of a deep romance, and I knew in my heart that this man was my soul mate. I loved him in HS but never got into a relationship because we were both attached elsewhere.
I was on cloud nine for quite a while in this relationship. I thought this was the answer for me. The fulfillment of everything I was looking for. I was wrong.
I spent as much time with Chris as I could since he was in the Navy, and would go to Florida where he was stationed to visit as much as possible. About 6 months into the relationship I was visiting in FL and was in bed with my "dream man" and realized that emptiness was still very present in my heart. I felt completely alone, scared and empty...while lying next to, who I thought, was the answer to everything my heart could ever want!
I flew home knowing I would never see him again. Two of my three brothers had already told me about Jesus in the years prior to this, but at that time, I still thought it was a man I was looking for. When I came home from that trip I asked them about Jesus again, and this time I knew that HE would be the answer to that emptiness in my soul. I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior and my life has never been the same! That day, I got filled with love, like I've never known in my life! It was complete and total, and I've never felt that emptiness again.
I told Chris about Jesus and how He had changed my life, but at that time he was not interested in a commitment to God. He was heartbroken, but less than a year later he met another woman and got married. I don't even think they were married 1 year and he died. His ship, the USS Stark, got torpedoed while on a routine mission in middle eastern waters. I was so hurt and confused by his death, but later in my life I realized that God protected me from being a widow at the age of 20. I was planning on marrying this man. God knows everything, and I trust Him.
So shortly after I got "saved" I went to Bible school because I wanted to learn more about God. I couldn't get enough! I was radically saved and I never looked back. I got a great Biblical foundation at Bible school and made some lifelong friends there. I spent my twenties searching for the man that God had for me. Futile search because I didn't meet him until I was 29. (He was previously married, so I had to wait for him to get divorced!) I'm so thankful that I waited for the right man for me! I was engaged twice before my husband and although they were both wonderful people, neither man was the right one for me.
Bobby and I married when I turned 30 and I proceeded to have one child, then another child, and finally our third one was our last child. I love being a mom! It was the only "career" I ever wanted growing up! I realized that dream becoming a mom and love every minute...well, not EVERY minute of it!
We lived in Maplewood, New Jersey at this time. My oldest brother, Mark, lived in Colorado and we would visit about once a year. The Lord began to deal with me about moving to CO before he dealt with my husband. I would periodically ask him if he felt God was leading us to move. He would say "no", so I would let it go...for the time being.
One visit to CO, I was alone visiting a friend, and the leading from God was so strong to move. I prayed a very simple prayer. I said, "Lord, if you want us to move, we will move. Just make it so completely clear to both of us that we should move, and we will move." After this simple prayer, I went to church with my brother. He attended a very dynamic church called New Life, and I always looked forward to going there whenever I would visit him. Anyway, the pastor's message that very day was about a family (in the Old Testament, Genesis) that didn't obey God and move to where He told them to move to. The pastor proceeds to talk about how important it is to God where we live. He went on and on about how great Colorado Springs is! I was floored! I knew this message was for me and my family!
I bought the CD of the service that day and let my husband listen to it when I got back to NJ. He realized right away that it was God and we had to move. To make a long story short, he got a job in CO very quickly, we sold our house at the peak of the market in one weekend open house and God blessed us with an amazing sale price of our house. We were able to build a brand new house in Colorado Springs and we have been here since April of 2005.
God is and always has been an amazing presence in my life. I can't remember a time since I've been saved that I was not led by Him and felt as if I was in His perfect will. Now I've been a stay-at-home mom for almost 12 years and I am asking Him..."What's next?" My kids are all in school full time and I am feeling a sense of new beginning. I can start something new now and I want to do God's plan. I am open. I'm asking, and I'm ready to move into the next phase of my life. I'm excited to see what God has for me. I know whatever it is...it involves the "unknown", kind-of like blogging. It's scary and exciting at the same time. Thanks for reading.
I will begin this thing with my story. My story starts out in Northern New Jersey. I was born and raised in a small town in NJ called Dumont. It was one square mile. I come from a middle class upbringing, always had my needs met, parents still married today after 50 years. I had three older brothers and we grew up without anything tragic happening in our family, thankfully.
I went through my teen years and was quite rebelious toward my parents. I began "experimenting" out there to see what could fill this hole in my soul that I knew was there, but I couldn't articulate what it might be. So I tried a variety of drugs and alcohol, I tried everything at least once, but deep down inside I knew it was a relationship that would ultimately fill that void. (Don't ask me how I knew that. I was always very relational.) Consequently, I never did get too involved in substance abuse, and I thank God for that as well.
I began dating at a very early age, but I didn't really lose my innocence until Sophmore year of high school. I met a boy in HS who I never actually dated then, but would later become someone very important to me. After HS, I went to one year of community college which made me feel even more lost. I didn't enjoy college because I had no direction. (Sounds familiar!)
During that year I got a phone call from that boy (who was now a man) that I knew from HS, Chris. He was in the Navy at this time and he needed a date for his best friend's wedding. I happened to be unattached so I joyfully accompanied him to the wedding. It was the beginning of a deep romance, and I knew in my heart that this man was my soul mate. I loved him in HS but never got into a relationship because we were both attached elsewhere.
I was on cloud nine for quite a while in this relationship. I thought this was the answer for me. The fulfillment of everything I was looking for. I was wrong.
I spent as much time with Chris as I could since he was in the Navy, and would go to Florida where he was stationed to visit as much as possible. About 6 months into the relationship I was visiting in FL and was in bed with my "dream man" and realized that emptiness was still very present in my heart. I felt completely alone, scared and empty...while lying next to, who I thought, was the answer to everything my heart could ever want!
I flew home knowing I would never see him again. Two of my three brothers had already told me about Jesus in the years prior to this, but at that time, I still thought it was a man I was looking for. When I came home from that trip I asked them about Jesus again, and this time I knew that HE would be the answer to that emptiness in my soul. I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior and my life has never been the same! That day, I got filled with love, like I've never known in my life! It was complete and total, and I've never felt that emptiness again.
I told Chris about Jesus and how He had changed my life, but at that time he was not interested in a commitment to God. He was heartbroken, but less than a year later he met another woman and got married. I don't even think they were married 1 year and he died. His ship, the USS Stark, got torpedoed while on a routine mission in middle eastern waters. I was so hurt and confused by his death, but later in my life I realized that God protected me from being a widow at the age of 20. I was planning on marrying this man. God knows everything, and I trust Him.
So shortly after I got "saved" I went to Bible school because I wanted to learn more about God. I couldn't get enough! I was radically saved and I never looked back. I got a great Biblical foundation at Bible school and made some lifelong friends there. I spent my twenties searching for the man that God had for me. Futile search because I didn't meet him until I was 29. (He was previously married, so I had to wait for him to get divorced!) I'm so thankful that I waited for the right man for me! I was engaged twice before my husband and although they were both wonderful people, neither man was the right one for me.
Bobby and I married when I turned 30 and I proceeded to have one child, then another child, and finally our third one was our last child. I love being a mom! It was the only "career" I ever wanted growing up! I realized that dream becoming a mom and love every minute...well, not EVERY minute of it!
We lived in Maplewood, New Jersey at this time. My oldest brother, Mark, lived in Colorado and we would visit about once a year. The Lord began to deal with me about moving to CO before he dealt with my husband. I would periodically ask him if he felt God was leading us to move. He would say "no", so I would let it go...for the time being.
One visit to CO, I was alone visiting a friend, and the leading from God was so strong to move. I prayed a very simple prayer. I said, "Lord, if you want us to move, we will move. Just make it so completely clear to both of us that we should move, and we will move." After this simple prayer, I went to church with my brother. He attended a very dynamic church called New Life, and I always looked forward to going there whenever I would visit him. Anyway, the pastor's message that very day was about a family (in the Old Testament, Genesis) that didn't obey God and move to where He told them to move to. The pastor proceeds to talk about how important it is to God where we live. He went on and on about how great Colorado Springs is! I was floored! I knew this message was for me and my family!
I bought the CD of the service that day and let my husband listen to it when I got back to NJ. He realized right away that it was God and we had to move. To make a long story short, he got a job in CO very quickly, we sold our house at the peak of the market in one weekend open house and God blessed us with an amazing sale price of our house. We were able to build a brand new house in Colorado Springs and we have been here since April of 2005.
God is and always has been an amazing presence in my life. I can't remember a time since I've been saved that I was not led by Him and felt as if I was in His perfect will. Now I've been a stay-at-home mom for almost 12 years and I am asking Him..."What's next?" My kids are all in school full time and I am feeling a sense of new beginning. I can start something new now and I want to do God's plan. I am open. I'm asking, and I'm ready to move into the next phase of my life. I'm excited to see what God has for me. I know whatever it is...it involves the "unknown", kind-of like blogging. It's scary and exciting at the same time. Thanks for reading.
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